Day 3, Learning How to Leave my Comfort Zone

       Ahh, my good ole comfort zone how I love thy, but I'm starting to leave you more and more and I have to say I feels pretty damn good (lol). The more I come out of my comfort zone the more I seem to learn more about the world around me and the people in it. I love learning about the different point of views people have on an issues that affect the masses and how different people live and are treated in society.
       For example, women and their promiscuity have always been a deep and heated debate for as long as I can remember. The notion that a woman should be judged on how promiscuous she is or isn't is everywhere, in the media, in schools, and even in our homes. I too was taught at a young age that "boys will be boys" so you have to "cover up", "keep your legs closed" and try your best not to get on their "bad side". I believed this for a while and even joined in on some slut-shaming and tried to cater to their foolishness, but not anymore, I had to come out of my comfort zone to see the answer that has been there all along, women deserve their promiscuity and just as much as men do.
       If I never would have came out of my comfort zone I never would have seen this point of view and never would have been set free of this narrow-minded and "respectable" way of thinking. It just goes to show you just because you were taught a certain way, it doesn't mean it's right or even right for you. Coming out from your comfort helps to see more of a world that you never knew about and connect with people you never thought you would or could connect with :) <3.

Day-2 Motivation

Motivation has always been a scary word for me, I never knew why but I'm trying to cure myself from this affliction. I'm starting to realize that I actually might need it to get though the goals that I have set for myself, usually I would just wait around for the energy to just magically appear out thin air, but now I starting to think that that's not the way the it works (smh). Now I'm currently trying to reprogram myself so I can start crossing off some my goals on my list. I have quite the few goals and to make matters even more interesting these aren't just your run of the mill, every day goals. These are 3 or 4, possibly 5 years in the making and I'm a person who needs immediate results or I started to lose interest and eventually motivation. Here is where the training comes into play, but in order to "cure" myself I  have to read a book on "How to Get Motivated and Stay Motivated" and idk if I have the "motivation" to finish the book (smh), but I am determined to keep my focus on starting over and achieving all my goals.

Day 1- The beginning

Where do I begin to tell you how I've come to "reinvent" myself over the course of 7 years. I started when I was 17 after getting over a majorly depressing time in my life. I was trying to figure out who I really was and trying to start my life again after "shutting down my life" for 3 months, I was finally get to a good place where I felt happy again and I saw value in myself once again. After I graduated from school I got accepted into college but I had also gained a boyfriend at the time who didn't have the best intentions for me. At first he seemed nice but after a while I started to see that he wasn't the right person for me. Before I had a chance to realize it I was pregnant and before I knew it I was pregnant anymore.. I was heartbroken, it had felt as if my whole world came crashing down on top of me and it was hard to breathe or want to continue on living.. But I  still held on to that relationship tho.. I just didn't want to move on from my miscarriage yet so I thought being with him gave me a link to my unborn child, it wasn't until later that I realized that I didn't need him to be closer to him nor did I need him at all. So at the age of 19 I reinvented myself again as a girl who didn't need a mate only wanted a mate. I felt like this relationship helped me move past a few broken relationships including the one I had with my child's father. I gave it my all but at the end of day I had a child to raise and I didn't want a mate that would interfere with me being a mother to my child. So again at the age of 20 I reinvented myself once again as a mother. My son became the light of my world and my new sense of joy, I have made myself into a better person because of him. Over the next few years I have watched him grow and in turn he has helped me grown into a person who knows what happiness is and to always strive for happiness and not  for success. If you are happy then you are successful, if your not happy then you are not living successfully and that is why I am starting over again. I am not happy working for other people or companies, I want to work at my own pace and make my own decisions and not be judge by them from some one who is "above me" so I'm in the next year I want to be self employed and I want to have a degree in business and a degree in Alternative Medicine or both. Today I start striving for a new day, an happier day 😁.