Day 1- The beginning

Where do I begin to tell you how I've come to "reinvent" myself over the course of 7 years. I started when I was 17 after getting over a majorly depressing time in my life. I was trying to figure out who I really was and trying to start my life again after "shutting down my life" for 3 months, I was finally get to a good place where I felt happy again and I saw value in myself once again. After I graduated from school I got accepted into college but I had also gained a boyfriend at the time who didn't have the best intentions for me. At first he seemed nice but after a while I started to see that he wasn't the right person for me. Before I had a chance to realize it I was pregnant and before I knew it I was pregnant anymore.. I was heartbroken, it had felt as if my whole world came crashing down on top of me and it was hard to breathe or want to continue on living.. But I  still held on to that relationship tho.. I just didn't want to move on from my miscarriage yet so I thought being with him gave me a link to my unborn child, it wasn't until later that I realized that I didn't need him to be closer to him nor did I need him at all. So at the age of 19 I reinvented myself again as a girl who didn't need a mate only wanted a mate. I felt like this relationship helped me move past a few broken relationships including the one I had with my child's father. I gave it my all but at the end of day I had a child to raise and I didn't want a mate that would interfere with me being a mother to my child. So again at the age of 20 I reinvented myself once again as a mother. My son became the light of my world and my new sense of joy, I have made myself into a better person because of him. Over the next few years I have watched him grow and in turn he has helped me grown into a person who knows what happiness is and to always strive for happiness and not  for success. If you are happy then you are successful, if your not happy then you are not living successfully and that is why I am starting over again. I am not happy working for other people or companies, I want to work at my own pace and make my own decisions and not be judge by them from some one who is "above me" so I'm in the next year I want to be self employed and I want to have a degree in business and a degree in Alternative Medicine or both. Today I start striving for a new day, an happier day 😁.